It's always worth the payoff.
This is from Jared. He gave it to me after church today. A few days ago he asked for a duo tang and some paper and I didn't think about it again.
This is what he wrote:
How I love my moTHer
Mom, I love you for all the things you do, I love it how you make dinner and how you fold the clothes but most importantly I love you because your my mother. We spend time together to talk about me or to talk about my autism. I feel love around even when dad is there.
You care for me and my brothers. You always know what's right and thats something I like.
I love you with all my heart and I know you love me too. I hope that even though your upset when me or the brothers do something wrong, you'll still love us.
When Jared was diagnosed and I was in a state of fear and sadness and all that goes with officially knowing that your baby has a life long challenge with no fix and only hard lessons and training needed to co-exist with the "normal folk", I wondered if he would ever know how to express his love. I wondered if his expressions up to that time were "learned behaviors" or if true emotion was behind it.
Today I received my answer. Mother's Day or not, I can't find an eloquent enough way to share how it makes me feel.